Because I'm taking a break from studying...

25 Random Things About Me:

1. I tend to hold on to stuff too long. if i could have I would have kept every stuffed animal I've owned since I was three and that's a lot of stuffed animals.
2. I'm a terribly anxious person. I've been known to blow really big auditions because I'll begin to shake really hard at which point I just go inside my head and get the really strange sensation that I'm watching myself play almost from above.
3. That being said, except for auditions, I tend to hide my nerves well. The problem is I'm stuck over analyzing and obsessing, usually in my head.
4. I love the feeling I get after I run. it helps me calm down and feel less anxious and just feel good in general throughout the day.
5. I'm kind of self conscious about the fact that my hands turn purple when I get cold (which happens a lot)
6. I love the drums. Besides auditions (which totally freak me out) it's almost impossible for me to not enjoy playing them. I love the feeling of total freedom playing set, the feeling of accomplishment and intensity of playing snare, the musicality and power of timpani, and even the swiftness and grace of mallets. Percussion is kind of my life
7. Though some of my traits are totally unquestionably left brain (I like to have a plan and I could not live without my agenda) I am so incredibly right brained in so many respects. I love free writing and poetry and I spend hours on garage band playing with tone and composing my own music (I don't know how good it is and I'm kind of shy about showing it especially after half a year of music theory and seeing that so much of what I write is totally incorrect )
8. I sing a lot. When I'm alone in the house. When there are other people in the house. Even sometimes when I'm running I'll sing along to my ipod.
9. random things make me feel like crying. Meetings with teachers and guidance councilors (I don't know if it's bad associations from meetings in the past or what, sometimes I'll feel upset if it isn't even bad news), certain Simon and Garfunkel songs, actions movies where random civilians are killed, pictures puppies in pounds (like that commercial where they play that song "in he arms of an angel" and sow crying puppies)
10. I wish every season were pep band season
11. I seem to be strangely attuned to peoples feelings. Oftentimes I can see who someone likes before the even ask that person out, and I'm usually able to tell if someone really didn't like me or was upset with me even if they never said so much allowed (that doesn't mean I always know how to deal with it)
12. Still I don't always trust my instincts and sometimes I'll make myself believe that someone is upset with me when it's simply not true
13. I love each and every one of my friends and don't know where I'd be without them
14. I like watching horror movies but my favorite parts are the parts that aren't scary which might be a bit contradictory...
15. I'm actually pretty good about music. I'll give almost anything a try (i read this book that said that the music you like during your teens is the music you'll like for the rest of your life and so I'm determined to gain a taste for as much music as possible while I can) I have an appreciation for operatic metal but most of the time it just makes me feel sad and so it's definitely not my favorite
16. Recently I've been listening to Guster a lot and for reasons I really can't say I really like Paper Plane by M.I.A. The beach boys make me happy
17. I don't tend to associate specific descriptions with things like music and seasons. Rather I will identify them with feelings and pictures, some of them indescribable. For example, autumn is walking down a path in between rows of golden red trees with the sun warm on my back. Summer is the beach at sunset, warm but breezy. music also comes with it's own identity. Sometimes it can be identified with seasons or landscapes but other times it's only related to the feeling or color that seems to summarize it.
18. I have trouble writing stories longer than a few pages, mostly because I plan what's going to happen ahead of time, and if I already know what's going to happen, than what's the point of writing. That's probably why i tend to write poetry.
19. I love my handwriting because it's incredibly small and neat
20 When I was little I was obsessed with dinosaurs. I could tell you the name of all these bizarre creatures with names longer than I should have been able to memorize.
21. My life's dream was to dig for dinosaurs in montana. I also wanted to run the boston marathon and climb everest. Someday maybe I'll run the marathon (that's a big maybe though) but i will never climb everest. ever. not after watching into thin air (I didn't even finish it and it traumatized me...poor Rob Hall)
22. I am the cabasa master mwaahaahaa
23. Autumn is wonderful. It has pumpkins and Halloween and wonderful colors and the temperature is just perfect for most of it.
24. I love airports. There's a quote about them in Love Actually that's very appropriate but I don't want to botch it and I'm a bit too lazy to look it up. I love the feeling of anticipation and the lame git shops and the people rushing to the gates and the seats where you sit and wait for the plane, and the sound of rolling suitcases and the voices of=ver the intercom.
25. If I've learned anything in my so-far high school it is to respect the people in my life; including myself. I can't always live up to my expectations but I'll try my best, though sometimes it's just as important to live my life in the moment as it is to live for the future.

Wow I wrote a lot
It might be time for me to get back to math now....

HAPPY SNOW DAY!